She'd like that. [she thinks maybe anyone he was close to might, but her yuffie bias is in play here. she studies him carefully, tilting her head a moment to try and read his face.]
Were you lonely before? Only looking after yourself and only having yourself to rely on.
[this is such a large assumption but she's asking based on context clues. maybe aventurine didn't actually care at all as long as he got his way. the only way to know is to ask.]
[ It's not a large leap to make considering... all of him. But he does huff out a breath, a sound akin to a laugh. ]
I guess I don't hide it very well these days.
[ With so much happening and the people he's learned to care about and depend on... He's never had anything like it before. ]
I lost the people closest to me at a young age, you see, and my life before this place didn't afford me many opportunities for making genuine relationships.
Not really. [ruthless, but still kind about it.] ...your family though, I take it. [you were looking for your sister...]
It's difficult to try and form attachments when you have to look out for number one just to stay alive. And for someone like you who takes big risks I can imagine it's even harder to trust people in case they double-cross you, even if you did want to place trust in them. But...being here changes things a little, doesn't it? Everybody restricted from their usual circumstances and in the same situation.
[she does sort of wonder how he would have thrived if he wasn't killed immediately.]
Think it's something you'll be able to carry back with you when we find a way out?
Yup. No veils, no places to hide. Just you as you are. And it seems like the person you are is someone people like, if they're still getting to know you and letting you know them in return.
[...she continues to quietly analyze him for a moment.]
I'm not going to ask you about your circumstances back home. The way you view yourself kinda says enough. But I do think the effort and wanting to hope for that says enough, too. You'll get there. It's funny. Once it starts, I think it's one of those things you don't really forget how to do because you never realized how much you wanted it to begin with.
[ SHE IS READING HIM LIKE A BOOK. A CHILDREN'S BOOK. WITH PICTURES. ]
It's almost frightening how easily you put it to words... For a time, all I ever sought were cheap thrills and risks and the next biggest payoff, but these days, I'm finding that fervent desire has shifted its course.
[ A huff of breath, something caught between a sigh and a laugh. ]
Because trying to bring people closer is the biggest risk of all? [it's a little dry, but understanding.] I think...maybe I understand it a little better than you'd think. And as someone with experience, let me just say it does, actually, get easier and easier.
When you think about it, your best is all you can really do. It's just that your best becomes better over time.
Happy to do it. Keep that in mind, okay? For anything. [because at this point all they can do is try to help each other through.] Even if it's just to tell you you're likeable.
[it's a joke but yeah, she'll hype him up??? horrible.]
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Were you lonely before? Only looking after yourself and only having yourself to rely on.
[this is such a large assumption but she's asking based on context clues. maybe aventurine didn't actually care at all as long as he got his way. the only way to know is to ask.]
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I guess I don't hide it very well these days.
[ With so much happening and the people he's learned to care about and depend on... He's never had anything like it before. ]
I lost the people closest to me at a young age, you see, and my life before this place didn't afford me many opportunities for making genuine relationships.
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It's difficult to try and form attachments when you have to look out for number one just to stay alive. And for someone like you who takes big risks I can imagine it's even harder to trust people in case they double-cross you, even if you did want to place trust in them. But...being here changes things a little, doesn't it? Everybody restricted from their usual circumstances and in the same situation.
[she does sort of wonder how he would have thrived if he wasn't killed immediately.]
Think it's something you'll be able to carry back with you when we find a way out?
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You're right about that. In a place like this, I've only had time to get to know people, and they've gotten to know me in turn.
[ It's changed him in ways that he hadn't thought possible. It's opened him up to possibilities that he thought were long gone for someone like him. ]
... I hope so, Miss Aerith. If not for my sake, then everyone else's. I think I owe them all that much.
[ For their unending patience and kindness. ]
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[...she continues to quietly analyze him for a moment.]
I'm not going to ask you about your circumstances back home. The way you view yourself kinda says enough. But I do think the effort and wanting to hope for that says enough, too. You'll get there. It's funny. Once it starts, I think it's one of those things you don't really forget how to do because you never realized how much you wanted it to begin with.
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It's almost frightening how easily you put it to words... For a time, all I ever sought were cheap thrills and risks and the next biggest payoff, but these days, I'm finding that fervent desire has shifted its course.
[ A huff of breath, something caught between a sigh and a laugh. ]
So, I'll do the best that I can.
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Because trying to bring people closer is the biggest risk of all? [it's a little dry, but understanding.] I think...maybe I understand it a little better than you'd think. And as someone with experience, let me just say it does, actually, get easier and easier.
When you think about it, your best is all you can really do. It's just that your best becomes better over time.
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[it's a joke but yeah, she'll hype him up??? horrible.]