[He will be. He just lies there with Aventurine, waiting for the dirt to claim him from under the blanket.]
I know.
[Which is why he's embarrassed about how he's acting and the way he is struggling to feel. He has food at home!! What the fuck is even the problem! Getting to know other people sucks, he's realized.]
[ STOP LITERALLY EVERYONE AVENTURINE HAS EVER CARED ABOUT HAS DIED ON HIM DO NOT BRING BACK THIS TRAUMA
But wow, this makes him think about if he had been too drunk to notice and then he would have left Essek all by himself out here and Aventurine would have been a horrible friend.
Anyway, reaches over to smack him on the shoulder.]
Quit apologizing. I needed to get away from the party anyway. You should have dragged me away with you.
[Yeah, that could have been a timeline that could have happened. That timeline happened in some reality somewhere actually. Essek was left alone for the rest of the night.
He grunts and jabs Aventurine with an elbow in return.]
Why? You don't have any reason to want to get away from a party.
[You stupid, idiot. He takes a hold of the hand by the wrist, then turns over on his side so he's facing Aventurine, holding the hand against his chest.]
You didn't answer my question.
[He's stupid, but he's not stupid, okay.]
I'll stay here with you until you feel like going back.
[ AND HE WILL CONTINUE TO NOT ANSWER THE QUESTION as he closes his eyes and starts drifting off to tipsy sleep. ]
... Just come and wake me up if the party dies down and I'm still not there. I won't forgive you if you forget and make me spend the entire night here...
[ The more he talks, the more it becomes sleepy mumbles. Good night, Essek. ]
[WTF! DON'T JUST COME OUT HERE TO GET FED AND THEN NOT GIVE ANYTHING IN RETURN!!!!!!!!!!!!!]
Hey, you didn't answer my...! Question...
[What the fuck? He is staring at Aventurine despondently. He's been abandoned out here, alone? THE TIMELINE REALLY CAME TRUE ANYWAY! HE HAS BEEN FORSAKEN OUT HERE ALONE!]
...That's not how friendship works.
[A quiet sigh. He glances down, and then turns his head a bit to look up at the sky instead. No one loves him, not even his friend......]
He will stay out here for a while longer just because he worries about Aventurine rolling off into the fucking water in his stupor sleep, but eventually, he'll sit up.
For a long moment, he peers down at Aventurine. He doesn't think this man is alright at all. In fact, he knows it.
Anyway, he will suddenly just lean down and kiss Aventurine lightly on the lips, and then he gets up to go back to the party.]
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I know.
[Which is why he's embarrassed about how he's acting and the way he is struggling to feel. He has food at home!! What the fuck is even the problem! Getting to know other people sucks, he's realized.]
It's fine. I'll be fine after a while.
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[ Yeah, they can just stay here for a little while longer. ]
Don't go wandering off on your own again. You should also know that I'm here whenever you want to talk.
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I already knew you would find me if you realized I was missing and weren't too drunk to noticed.
[Because Aventurine is his friend.]
I'm sorry... for acting this way right now, of all times.
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But wow, this makes him think about if he had been too drunk to notice and then he would have left Essek all by himself out here and Aventurine would have been a horrible friend.
Anyway, reaches over to smack him on the shoulder.]
Quit apologizing. I needed to get away from the party anyway. You should have dragged me away with you.
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He grunts and jabs Aventurine with an elbow in return.]
Why? You don't have any reason to want to get away from a party.
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Anyway, just enjoys the cool breeze and the fresh air for a moment. He's still a little tipsy. ]
I was drinking more than usual. It caught up to me, how close we are to finishing all of this.
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Do you want some water? Are you... nervous, or just... relieved?
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Jae-ha got me some water earlier. I'll be okay, I just want to stay here for a while, maybe nap it off. Go back to the party.
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You didn't answer my question.
[He's stupid, but he's not stupid, okay.]
I'll stay here with you until you feel like going back.
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... Just come and wake me up if the party dies down and I'm still not there. I won't forgive you if you forget and make me spend the entire night here...
[ The more he talks, the more it becomes sleepy mumbles. Good night, Essek. ]
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Hey, you didn't answer my...! Question...
[What the fuck? He is staring at Aventurine despondently. He's been abandoned out here, alone? THE TIMELINE REALLY CAME TRUE ANYWAY! HE HAS BEEN FORSAKEN OUT HERE ALONE!]
...That's not how friendship works.
[A quiet sigh. He glances down, and then turns his head a bit to look up at the sky instead. No one loves him, not even his friend......]
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He will stay out here for a while longer just because he worries about Aventurine rolling off into the fucking water in his stupor sleep, but eventually, he'll sit up.
For a long moment, he peers down at Aventurine. He doesn't think this man is alright at all. In fact, he knows it.
Anyway, he will suddenly just lean down and kiss Aventurine lightly on the lips, and then he gets up to go back to the party.]